Monologue

I like to say and believe in the fact that I have control over my life. But there is one thing that never allows me to boast freely. There is one thing I can never get hold of. One thing I could… Never…. Ever…. Control. My gluttony ! It’s not that I am hungry throughout the day or don’t eat proper food. Even if I did follow a healthy eating regime, nothing could stop me from indulging into another meal if it evoked my senses. That’s the reason I don’t surf Facebook much at night, as most of the pages I follow are gourmet related and seeing those videos and posts while I am about to sleep after seemingly having eaten enough, would be a torture. I can actually hear my stomach rumble. Last week, when I fell seriously ill, I couldn’t bear the separation from the “good” food. Just imagine the pain of the girl who eats 4-5 restaurant made meals per week.  Once we fall ill, the next step that most of us take is the worst we could do to ourselves. That is, depriving oneself of the fo

Life is like that. I spent the last few months thinking, why am I so lazy and why am I unable to change that. Couldn't figure out, until one day, when my sister mentioned how puberty changed so many elements of her life. The most prominent one being her hair texture changing from straight to wavy ones. As I lay down on my bed, eating a FOOD ITEM that I shouldn't be mentioning lest that gives you a craving too. No that’s an incredible natural phenomenon ! Only I know how many pizzas I’ve gobbled while watching F.R.I.E.N.D.S. Sometimes, I even develop acidity post dinner if I watch those 30 sec recipe videos of Facebook. So…. Sorry for mentioning the food item. Where was I .. Yes.. I finally realised, I haven’t actually been lazy, as I used to be a lot more active before I hit puberty. Maybe my puberty made me a procrastinator. So a few days later I got the motivation to change that. I got all ready to finish stuff quicker, dividing them into smaller tasks, motivated for exer